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don't let them take the fight outta you [November 09, 2009] [ mood | blah ] [ music | Amber - 311 ] i should of known better than to mistake business for love they say that you've arrived - that's just a high class bribe i talk myself in and i talk myself out she couldn't spend one day alone, but she couldn't be satisfied when you have everything, you have everything to lose

rock n roll [August 20, 2009] [ mood | hot ] MY PONY IS ADORABLE

OH SUMMERTIME [August 13, 2009] [ mood | enthralled ] I fukking luv u so much sumer tyme u mak me all tan lookin n stuff n ppl think I look gud n I just wnted to say thnx. so...thnx! NOW JOIN ME OUTSIDE TO ENJOY THE REST OF THIS BEAUTIFUL WEATHER YOU COMPUTER ADDICTS.

throw it all away for O N E happy day [August 12, 2009] [ mood | Dreamy ] [ music | Your Song (Elton John) ] WATCH MOULIN ROUGE p.s. I'm big time hung up on Love these days. That's what happens when your single for too long... So needless to say, I'm also similarly hung up on these songs: Excuse me while I go day dream a bit..

less talking more touching [August 12, 2009] [ mood | ecstatic ] [ music | La Tortura (Shakira) ] (For the sake of visual aids to a BOOK I will be using images from the 1995 & 2005 film adaptation) (Don't be deceived. Elizabeth HAS hair in the novel.) Uhm yeah. So I just finished reading Jane Austen's "Pride & Prejudice"...I'm ardently in love. It took me less time to finish THAT hefty novel than it did to read through the first four pages of "Harry Potter and The Philosopher's Stone". (a.k.a I never got past page 4... IT TOOK TOO LONG FOR PEOPLE TO START KICKING THE BUCKET, OK?) Granted, these are two very different genres and completely different styles...Austen's ability to make my own panties tie themselves into a knot during a fluttery dance at every appearance of the handsomely proud Mr.Darcy (choose your eye candy according to tastes - 1995 or 2005 )  - versus Rowling's...less than stirring effect on my loins at the mention of the scraggly child living under the stairs... AUSTEN IS THE VICTOR. Oh my dear Jane, I would resurrect you in some way if only I could, would you write me novel after novel with my own likeness inserted into each story. I, of course, would be the heroine of the story complete with a small (but decent) fortune and handsome looks. Things would start out badly then progressively get worse...Holy shit, this is starting to sound like real life. THEN IN THE END, I would meet my match in wit and charm - both of which I possess a sizable quantity - in some devilishly handsome but standoffish gentleman from a neighboring or perhaps distant country. THEN WE DO IT IN THE STABLES. Oh! How delightfully delicious THAT would be. (cue Caitlin going off into a hazy dream sequence) (25 mins elapse) Oh... You're still here? Uhm. In short, please go to your nearest bookstore and purchase Jane Austen's "Pride & Prejudice" if you want a book that will explore some of the true qualities of human nature (pride and prejudice are amongst the most highlighted ones, if you hadn't guess that already) through decadent use of literary skills; primarily character development. Enough with that - MR.DARCY AND ELIZABETH BENNET'S SEXUAL TENSION IS THE RESON YOU WANT TO READ THIS NOVEL, LADIES. Honestly, I have never looked at men with more contempt, for not being more like Mr. Darcy, as I do right now. Instead, I get stuck with all the fucksticks and whoremongers of the city. I wouldn't mind their pride if it was backed up with something to ACTUALLY be proud of. You know...an achievement or something. Living at home with Mummy & Daddy at 28, driving a '95 Honda Civic, and working at your local Radioshack ain't going to get me all hot and bothered... My only criticism of the novel was that not only were there not enough makeout/heavybreathing/sex/heavypetting scenes...but also THAT THERE WERE NONE AT ALL. I forgive Jane Austen because you know, she would have been called a harlot in those days for actually talking about people touching each other out of sexual desire or you know, fondness. Don't get your hopes up. There was never any "forehead touching" mentioned either. Props to you Janie.

GET over IT [July 28, 2009] [ mood | Gross ] [ music | Get Over It (Ok Go) ] I feel fat. D: Even though I'm not. I was all muscled and SHEERA-like..then I let myself go and now my toned ass and thighs are jiggly. Boo-urns. Back to the gym with my sorry ass. Yogaaaaaaa! Spinning classes! Personal traineeeerrrr....His name is Kevin and he has dreadlocks. Badass. I know. I even went out and bought new yoga pants and shorts to get myself HYPED. YEAAAH,

get over it [July 24, 2009] [ mood | awake ] [ music | The Fix Is In - Ok Go ] Lot of knots, lot of snags, lot of holes, lot of cracks lot of crags. Lot of naggin' old hags, lot of fools, lot of fool scum bags. Oh it's such a drag, what a chore... oh your wounds are full of salt. Everything's a stress and what's more, well it's all somebody's fault. yeyeye I haven't posted in this thing for a while. Evidently, life has become incomparably busy! I did in fact end up buying that horse I spoke about a few entries earlier! IT'S A GIRL. I know. You're fucking jealous. It's because if she were human she'd pretty much be Megan Fox: The resemblance is uncanny. I know. In other words, I get to ride Megan Fox for hours and hours and give her sponge baths. Right about now there's a group of men and lesbians groaning with envy... In other news. My love life is FUCKED and I've decided that I have absolutely no luck with men and I'm jumping the fence to try my hand at women. LOL Pussy. I'm joking of course. UHM WHAT ELSE IS NEW AND EXCITING? ... Nothing. Sorry for the useless update. :D

BURNIN' [May 24, 2009] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | Boom Boom Pow (BEP) ] Things go horribly wrong and perfectly well all at once, don't they? LOVES IT. So, may I just point out that I'm handicapped by how much I'm in love with Sean Kingston's new song "Fire Burning"? Thanks. Feels good to admit it. Next week is my 21st birthday and it's going to be pretty different this year - not in any good ways but I intend to make the most of it! IN OTHER NEWS: Go visit awkwardfamilyphotos.com for big LOLs Do it now.

love's gonna get you down [April 24, 2009] [ mood | loved ] [ music | Happy Ending (Mika) ] Is it wrong that I wanna be sucking too hard on HIS lollipop? Oh Mika. You have some weird sexuality about you...perhaps in your enormous hair or maybe it's the way you sing higher than I have ever been able to. I'm not sure about those things... but I'm sure that I heart you.

[April 05, 2009] [ mood | contemplative ] It's not a party, if it happens every night I have been through my fair share of bullcrap recently. I think I deserve a break. I deserve to be given the chance to sit back and reflect on deicisions that I have made and that need to be made. I also think I should be allowed to be picky and change my mind at will. NOTHING IS CONCRETE I have learned of the unstability of things and how fickle the heart can be. I have experienced excruciating pain both physically and emotionally. The kind of pain that leaves your body swollen, scarred, and fragile. Hurt that blemishes and changes the very person you are. I am reserved when it comes to matters of the heart. To put my feelings on the line would be detrimental. Once was enough. I hesitated (wise) then gave into that nagging voice saying "Just do it. Go for it!" (soooo unwise...) I jumped headlong into the frying pan and got burnt. In an attempt to patch my wounds I was set on focusing my interest elsewhere, as I see now it was not the best choice as I was shortly betrayed. Licking these new wounds I was tossed into a tailspin that would turn out to be a hideous way to start 2009. Two surgeries and a case of mono later, I was back in the swing of things, trying my best to keep my head high...It wasn't high enough.  I'm caught up in another web of complications. Three hours apart, it could never work out as a true relationship. I'm too selfish of a person to comit to something with so much distance. Gas doesn't come cheap! Neither do repairs on cars...That's a whole other story. RECENTLY however, I've been coasting freely through these waves. I need to figure out a way to rig Roll Up The Rim so I can get that 10k. I've fallen in love with a darling of a 3 year old Appendix mare. She's a steal at $2,800(negotiable). I need a job, first off. I'm moving home from school next week and I think I can pull this whole this off. Minimum wage has gone up considerably and if I were to work at least 5 days a week, 8hrs/shift, I'd easily make near $400 a month. THIS COULD WORK. I think I deserve it after all this bullshit.

NEIGH [February 09, 2009] [ mood | crazy ] [ music | Daylight Fading (Counting Crows) ] 1. Number of horses you have ridden so far? ...30+? Maybe more around 40...  :/ 2. So, list the breeds: Thoroughbred Thoroughbred cross Standardbred Quarter Horse Appendix Draft cross (Percheron, Clyde etc, usually crossed with a TB or QH) OIdenburg Trakehner Canadian Dutch Warmblood Hanoverian Arabian Welsh Cob Mixed breed ponies! 3. Sex of horse you rode? Mares and Geldings. I'll wait a LONG while before testing out Stallions...a long long long while. 4. Tallest horse you rode? 17.2hh Trakehner/Hanoverion/TB mare 17.1hh Dutch Warmblood gelding 17.1hh TB/Warmblood gelding 17hh Oldenburg mare  5. Height of horse you prefer? I like the big ones but all those 17hh horses were a real handful to ride! I like them around the 16hh mark. I'm not a very big person so it's a nice height for me :) 6. Favourite horse you have ridden so far? A 14.3hh Appy named Lightning is one that sticks out in my mind. He was such a fun and reward ride. His owner neglected to ride and pamper him so I did all that for her one summer. By September it was like he was my own pony that could have EASILY competed Dressage...'cept he wasn't mine... Hobbs a 16hh Red Dun Appy/TB gelding. Having JUST turned five he is the single BEST behaved horse I have ever worked with. He came to the school inverted, weak in the hocks (he scooted around in Western tack) and through his back and was just boring to watch go. A barn tech asked if I wanted to try him English and that was it for me. It was love. I worked my ass off for four months on this gentleman! By the end we placed 3rd and 4th in the College's Dressage shows and he was tracking up and his neck was starting to get rather cresty. I had even convinced my mother that I should buy him since he was so well mannered for a four/five year old and had lots of potential...unfortunately, the day I went to inquire about him, I found out he had sold. Broke my heart. I still get sniffly thinking about that handsome guy. Trudeau - the epitomy of my Dressage training came when I was given the opportunity to work with this GIANT of a Dutch Warmblood. Imported from Germany; where he had standed at stud for the first few years of life, he had an EXTREMELY successful show career, never placing any lower than 1st (usually taking Reserve Champion) in Level 2. He's capable of Level 3 movemnts but was never taken any farther. He was gelded late and was continued to be shown in Eastern Canada and now he's found his way into my life! Haha - I wish I could afford him (he's for sale...buy him for me) but he has taught me SO MUCH with the help of his trainer and my coach. I feel I progress with every ride.  7. Ever fallen off? Bucked off? You're not a good rider until you've fallen off at least a handful of times! So I guess I'm pretty friggin' good! 8. Style of riding you've done? English - predominantly Dressage and a few years of over fences. Jumping intimidates me still too much to do it again... 9. Last time you rode? February 9th, 2009 - This morning at 8:30 AM! 10. Horses you have? NOT A SINGLE ONE! -sobs- I think I might try to steal Trudeau away in the night...  11. Horses you wish to have? I wish I could have EVERY horse I wanted but that's just not how it goes. I'd give anything if I could get Hobbs back. Trudeau is awesome and all but Hobbs was a snuggle-beast!

forgive and forget [February 05, 2009] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | You make it real (James Morrison) ] The older I get The more that I know It's time to let this go Is it our job to point out each others' faults? I don't really mind it when people do so for me...well, at the time, I'll likely be pissed off. AFTERWARDS, however, I'll reflect and realize my own faults and try to change for the better. I always kept my father at an arm's distance. I never wanted him any closer. I was cold. I snapped, snotty retorts to his questions or comments...My mother loves to point that sort stuff out. The first time she did it I was enraged that she would have the audacity to say that about me. As far as I was concerned, she knew nothing about how I was. In reality - she has been around my whole life...OF COURSE SHE KNEW ME. She knows more about me than I sometimes do. Later that night, I thought about what she had said and it frightened me. I cried. Was I really so cold with him? Yes. I've been trying to change ever since. I am more aware of the way I am these days. Honestly, I am. Though I'm sure I have many other faults I can name a good chunk of personality traits that people might not like about me (and that I don't like about me). Let's make a list, shall we? Judgmental - First impressions are everything to me. I'm unfair in this, as a first impression may just involve me seeing someone at the other side of a room. "Whore.", "Ew, ugly.", "I don't like his eyes..." I'm an awful person for it. Stubborn - I am quick to judge and I will stick to my guns. If I thought someone was an asshole, they'll be an asshole until proven otherwise. If I have made up my mind, it will take one hell of an argument to sway me. Cynical - Trust is a fickle thing. I know human nature well enough (just by knowing myself) to understand that people cannot be trust willy nilly. I've always been the pessimist - it seems that when you expect things to turn for the worse, it usually gets better! Vain - Ohhh yessss...Spending the first several years of my teenage life as, well to put it lightly, an "ugly duckling" I take pride in my appearance now that I've left those years behind. Perhaps, sometimes a little too much pride? Enough about me. I reflect ont his stuff every day. I try to figure out why I'm like this and what I can do to help myself. Aside from being aware of the way I am, I don't think there is much I can do. We are who we are. I can put a buffer between myself and the rest of the world I suppose. What I was trying to get together before I began to analyze myself, was; should we point out personality flaws in other people? Especially when these flaws are directly affecting you? ._____.

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I know things will get better [January 27, 2009] [ mood | thoughtful ] [ music | Fast Car (Tracy Chapman) ] ...speeding so fast I felt like I was drunk. I can't remember the last time I was truly happy. I know I have been recently but I've been so bogged down with surgeries, mono, catching up in school and a variety of other worlds of bs that I seem to have lost track of my happy meter. Hm. I want to drive down the 20, through the hills of Ste-Lazare with the windows down, radio filling the car with bubbly tunes that will attach themselves to that moment as a trigger to a memory. A memory that I can later withdraw from the bank at the corner of My Brain and My Subconscious. A memory that right now...would be super to have. Give me a moment to try and fish one out. Ah here's one now....(cue wonky flashback effects) It just rained. The air is so humid I can feel it against my skin. The fog has rolled in off the river and has already made it's way up the boulevard. Its haze makes it hard to see, the car's headlights are just reflected back at us as we turn a corner. We don't notice, we just keep on driving with the windows down and the radio cranked up. At obnoxious volumes we are belting out the wrong lyrics to "Swing Swing" by the All American Rejects. We don't care. It's 2:00 AM - we both work the next day. Still no worries. We are having the time of our lives. I can't, for the life of me, remember where we were going or where we were coming from but I always remember how great of a mood I was in!

The smoochie smooch bug [December 18, 2008] [ mood | sick ] [ music | Little Drummer Boy - Josh Groban ] I has it. The clinic called and my blood tested positive for MONONUCLEOSIS - The Kissing Disease! I obviously got it from the plethora of young men that I make out with on a regular basis </sarcasm>. So not only are all of my lymph nodes swollen to kingdom come, my tonsils covered in white filth, a fever plaguing me, but I am also highly contagious. I apologize to my family in advance for I have coughing and sneezing all over everyone's stuff since I came home last week... :/ The doctor also mentioned I have an enlarged spleen (the largest lymph node in the body) and I should avoid contact sports, dancing, or bumping into anything with my left side...OR ELSE IT COULD RUPTURE. They say this will last possibly EIGHT WEEKS. -cue sobbing- I won't have any friends left! I apologize for not being able to remove the bold from the above text. It's fucked.

Sorry - another bogus post [December 09, 2008] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Sleep (POTF) ] This song feels appropriate. Allow me to follow his advice and sleep now... --------------------------------------------- Sleep Hear your heartbeat Beat a frantic pace And it's not even seven AM You're feeling the rush of anguish settling You cannot help showing them in. Hurry up then Or you'll fall behind and They will take control of you And you need to heal The hurt behind your eyes Fickle words crowding your mind So Sleep, sugar, let your dreams flood in, Like waves of sweet fire, you're safe within Sleep, sweetie, let your floods come rushing in, And carry you over to a new morning Try as you might You try to give it up Seems to be holding on fast It's hand in your hand A shadow over your A beggar for soul in your face Still it don't matter If you won't listen If you won't let them follow you You just need to heal Make good all your lies Move on and don't look behind Day after day Fickle visions Messing with your head Fickle, vicious Sleeping in your bed Messing with your head Fickle visions Fickle, vicious

MAGIC [December 03, 2008] [ mood | nauseated ] This is a Godsent product. Straight from GOD. That's right. My wisdom teeth have been bursting through my gums since last year and FINALLY they are going to be removed come December 17th. Finally. Still, it's only December 3rd...Ick. I've been heating these two mini Magic Bags and sleeping with them plastered to either side of my face all night and all day today. I'm also taking handfulls of Advil whenever I get the pang of agony in my teeth. SOON YOU FUCKERS. YOU'LL BE RIPPED OUT OF MY FACE. FUCK YOU AND YOUR COUCH.

I have nothing interesting to tell you today. [November 24, 2008] [ mood | cold ] [ music | Curbside Prophet ] WRITE EXACTLY WHATS ON YOUR MIND, AND DON’T CHANGE IT 1. Your ‘ex’ and You = are making things complicated. 2. I am listening to = "Love is Real" by Jason Mraz 3. Maybe I should = get over it and move on. 4. I love = the holidays. 5. My best friend = is loved more than I could ever convey! 6. I don’t understand = how someone can change their mind so easily. 7. I have lost my respect for = things with dicks. 8. I last ate = Tim Horton's! 9. The meaning of my name is = "Pure and Virginal"   ...oh my. 10. I will always be = a woman of worth. 11. Love seems = too complicated to ever work out. 12. I never ever want to lose = my mind. 13. My myspace is = an out od date fad. 14. I get annoyed when = people change who they are from day to day. 15. Parties = are another excuse to get dressed up! :D 16. Simple Kisses = are some kin of Hershey candy? 17. Today I = had a good poop! 18. I wish = that I liked other people as much as I like myself right now. IS YOUR/ARE YOU 01. Is your hair wet? Nooooo 02. Is your cell phone right by you? Yep. 03. Do you miss someone? I miss lots of people <3 04. Are you wearing chap stick?: It's starting to wear off... 05. Are you tired?  Yeaaah 06. Are you wearing pajamas? No. It's 6:00.  08. Are you mad? Sometimes.. 09. Are you upset? I've been upset my whole life. NEW QUESTION. HAVE YOU 01. Ever stuck gum under a desk? Never. 02. Ever kicked someone? Many times. I'm sorry by the way! 03. Ever tripped over your own feet? Too often. TODAY HAVE YOU: 01. Cursed? Uhm...probably. 02. Gotten mad at someone? No - today was a rather happy day for me :D -RANDOM- Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now? Yes. Just check my previous journal entries to understand. Q: Do you have any siblings? Oui. Q: Do you want children? With the right person, I think anything is possible...even Caitlin having babies. Q: Do you smile often? I've been told I need to smile more. : / Q: Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off? Why yes I do. Q: Are your toenails painted? ALWAYS! :D Bright red! Q: Are you a friendly person? Most of the time I'm pleasant. I can be an asshole, so I've been told. Q: Who’s bed other than yours do you sleep in? What the hell kind of question is this...? I sleep in my bed, Becky's bed, Mum's bed, Mathijs' (home and dorm) and Sam's when she's not watching. Q: What color shirt are you wearing? Charcoal grey. Q: What were you doing at 11:45 ? I was in class, learning about horses with PSSM. Woo.

POW right in the kisser [November 23, 2008] [ mood | determined ] [ music | Poker Face - Lady Gaga ] yep. I'm still trying to figure my stuff out. May I point out that he has the most beautiful blue eyes ever? Sorry. IN OTHER NEWS: This is my last week of class! Woohoo!

Do you have a first aid kit handy? [November 13, 2008] [ mood | crappy ] I'm feeling better today. I have not really eaten this week - which is scary and a problem all on its own. I swear I've been trying to push food on myself but I eat a few bites and it becomes a painful and laborous task. Is this a side effect of the nuclear bomb from Monday night? I'm ready to go home this weekend. I'm done with residence for another week :/

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